What I hate about a New Year Coming: a genuine self examination at the end of a year

I have to admit that it’s a bit exaggerating to say that I hate about a new year coming at the end of a year. Shouldn’t it suppose to be a joyful thing to celebrate? at least we can have some fun on the new year’s eve, right? In case you are disagree with my opinion, just walk away, it’s me murmuring.

What is the most popular idea about a coming new year? In another word, what is the most popular thing to do in the beginning of a year? That’s right, set up a goal, a plan or a long to-do list. This thing has been one of the most irritating thing I would think of doing. Why? Because in the last over ten years, I never achieve those goals I had set up in the beginning, not even a quarter of it. I remember last time I made my wish of new year goal, it was a seem like promising but actually way too ambitious one. I of course didn’t realize it in the first place, although I did doubt myself fulfilling my plan. At the end, the whole thing just make me feel that I’m so incompetent. And even thinking of the idea of new year plan makes me unsettled. I just simply hate this feeling. Enough is enough. Even a complain should come to an end.

So, my plan this year is pretty simple. Do what I need to do, feel like to do, and do the things, no matter it’s language learning, workout, physical therapy, law studying, taking class or live a tranquil life. I’ll do it, instead of my best, to live a life that I feel really comfortable with, and try to get along with myself.

Year 2022 I’m coming!
Let’s breath!